Monday, February 20, 2006

ugh

Back off the holidays and could not get in the mood for work at all today. Been feeling crappy and mardy this evening, and can't shake it off.

Worrying that something bad is going to happen, and that's a feeling that I haven't had for a while. I hope that I'm just tired (didn't sleep well last night).

It's nothing really, a few little things - if I write them down it hopefully will help.
  • I think that the boss might be cross with me about something - if she is it is unfair and also, the thing that it is is a stupid thing, and I didn't do it in anything but good faith. I don't want to write it down as I'm loath to write about my job too much or specifically in my blog.
  • I knew that one parent was in the bar I was in on Friday, but a friend asked me on the phone tonight if I had had a good time there, and when I asked her how she knew she said , oh X said that her husband was there and he saw you. That's the last time I go out locally as it's not worth it, you can't breathe around here without it being noted. I am a bit worried that someone will complain to the boss about me - and this is where it's helping to write it down: I realise that that is completely ridiculous. yes, someone might think I shouldn't be out enjoying myself drinking red wine and dancing with a girlfriend, but that doesn't make me a bad person. Not like I was dancing naked on the bar or kissing the glass collector!
  • I think that there might be some s**t hitting the fan about me being lumbered with a task that I don't want to do and shouldn't really be doing, but was just getting on with, but someone has interfered, and I think it'll cause trouble, and I can do without it
  • and that's it

I must be very tired to be worked up really.

1 comment:

Dixie said...

People can be such poops, can't they?

I hope nothing is as bad as you imagine and that all will blow over.