Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Something Big

I haven't written about this yet, as I have been trying to compose my thoughts, but last weekend, we went to our friend's wedding, and meandered into the place the wedding was at (we weren't invited until the cake cutting at 5pm) for lunch. Anyhow, we had a lovely meal in a little Italian restaurant, and while we were talking, the omnipresent subject of whether or not our family is complete came up, as it is often wont to do. I told M that really, if he's adamant that we're not having any more, then he should go and have the snip, as I can't bear condoms (and without going into too much detail, they don't do much for him either), anyway, the upshot of it was, that M was feeling really in a quandry about it all.

I had to be very careful about what I say. I want this so much, I needed to make sure that I didn't get either overexcited or overemotional about it. So we had a really rational conversation, addressing his fears and anxieties, the pros and cons, talking about the positive and negative effects on A, whether M could feel the same about another child, money, practicalities...

We have decided that after my next period, we are going to try for another baby. We'll give it until Christmas and then review!!!

I can't stop thinking about it, although I am trying to be calm about it all. I am five years older than I was last time, although I feel that that would be negated by the five stone less that I weigh. I think that a 5-6 year age gap suits us all - we won't have two babies at the same time, A can feel really involved, I will have lots of time for the baby while he is at school, A can understand. I had some trouble conceiving A, because I had a hormone imbalance, but medication sorted that out. I was under a consultant regarding that until last year, where all my tests showed that the imbalance was resolved, and I was discharged, although I can go back anytime, so I think I'll give it until August before I go to the GP - I would rather be very natural and laid back about it and not make anyone anxious. I have ordered some ovulation tests off ebay though - they are really expensive at the chemist, so for next month I'll see what these ones are like.

I don't want to turn this blog into a "trying to conceive" record, and if I can't I'm pretty relaxed about it all, as I am already the proud owner of the Finest Child Ever Born - but it's the biggest thing in my life at the moment, and I'm simmering under with it all.

Blimey!!!!

6 comments:

Poppymom said...

Wow! Good luck! I'm also a big fan of the 4-6 year age difference between kids. If we have a second, that's what we'll do, too.

I think it seems like you're in a really good position for this, what with your newish career, A.'s age, your health upswing, etc. It seems like everything in your life is lining up for this.

Dixie said...

I'm with Poppy - sounds like everything points towards success!

I'm so excited for you! Good luck!

Annie said...

Zoe, this sounds like wonderful news for you. I can relate to every feeling you described while talking about it with M. We had so many of those discussions. Ironically, even though it happened for us by accident, S. is more happy and relaxed than ever about having a child, and except for our ever present medical concerns with the pre-term labor, most of his worries are all but gone... at least that's what he has said. And I think he really does feel content with this. It's almost like over time the worries got built up in his mind bigger than they actually were...

Anyway, I wish you happy, relaxed, and fruitful nookie over the next few month! Have fun!

Sally said...

Oh Zoe. What brilliant news! I am sure things will be so fine - the weight is such a big thing - you've made it so much easier for yourself. I'm nrealy at my pre-pregnancy weight and we're about to start trying in a couple of months...so we may be preggers together which would be cool.

Sal xx

Cassie said...

Good luck. Such exciting news.

Cassie

jess said...

I'm so excited for your family - I help everything goes smoothly.